Day 95, Psalm 95

To let God provide for us is vastly different than the ways we may provide for ourselves. I lived in the rat-race for 30 or more years. Carrying the burden for providing for my family. Always trying to advance my career so that the value of my work per hour would continue to increase year after year. My street smarts served me well, so I thought. I was able to continually increase my value and push up my salary. But, I also added responsibilities and consequently tied myself to my work in an unbalanced way.

When I suddenly found myself unable to work and had to trust God to provide for me, it was the crash course I never signed up for. A dear friend of mine taught me to write my needs down and put them in God’s hands, then let go and wait.

Within 18 months, God worked everything out in ways that I never could on my own. He flooded me with his provisions: much needed time with my family, new grandkids to snuggle, a new interest in cooking, a new ministry to be involved with, and my financial provisions were met in creative ways. My trust in Jesus multiplied significantly.

Did I sit quietly and wait patiently while He worked things out? Heck no. I flopped around in agony for longer than I’d like to admit (14 months). Eventually, I started to calm down and fully enjoy my new God-given provisions. It’s been so good for my soul. His lovingkindness towards me has humbled me in profound ways.

Come, let us bow down and worship him; Let us kneel before the Lord, our maker! He is our God, we are the people He cares for, the flock for which he provides.” Psalm 95:6-7

See you tomorrow for Psalm 96

Day 40, Psalm 40

While we were lamenting, God was providing.

This psalm reminds us that even when we are going through a difficult season, God is at work in our lives. It was true for David, it is true for us, too.

When my husband and I walked through the season of my vision loss, then career loss – all we could focus on was the problems ahead of us. We were scrambling to understand my eye condition, find the best treatment, manage our financial changes, sort out all the emotional issues, and a long list of subsequent complications. We were both overwhelmed for a long time. Around the two year mark, when things started to calm down, my husband was the first to notice all the little and big things God had done for us along the way. Financial provisions, excellent medical care, emotional support, and an uncountable amount of small daily graces that lightened our load, even when we didn’t notice at the time. The list is long, we feel so grateful and cared for.

While we were lamenting, God was providing.

See you tomorrow for Psalm 41.